Poems

by Jutta Miroiu-Dunker, former Jutta Gebauer



A DAY OR A LIFE

by Jutta Gebauer – 09/1980 


Sleeping
Working
Waiting.

       Sleeping
       Working
       Waiting. 

             Loving
             Hoping

                    Living

LIGHT IN YOUR WINDOW

by Jutta Gebauer – 03/1988


There was no light in your window
Although you were at home.
There was no light in your window
No one answered the phone.

Turn on the light in your window
My love, please give, me a sign.
The light in your window will show
Whether you're still mine.

There was no light in your window
And I didn't dare to ring.
I was afraid that your window
Might have to hide something.

I tried to send you a message
But you couldn't hear my voice.
I hoped that you felt my message
That asked you for your choice.

Turn on the light in your window
My love, please give me a sign.
The light in your window will show
Whether you're still mine.

Still there's no light in your window.
I know you are at home.
There is no light in your window,
No one answers the phone.

There is no light in your window.
I'll never dare to ring.
Now I am sure that your window
Is going to hide something.


My love, you gave me a sign.

You're no longer mine 

I WONDER 

by Jutta Gebauer – 08/1983
music by Rolf Simons

Yes, I wonder whether I'm strong enough
To stand a love being so tough
That lifts me up and holds me down
That makes me blue and play the clown.

After all I've said and done
I really want to go on
'Cause it's much too strong
I'm sure it's not wrong.

But I guess the only way
To carry the play
For me is to stay
Try not to run away
Before I had a chance
To renew that romance
That gave me confidence
To pull down my fence.

After all I've said and done
I really want to go on
'Cause it's much to strong
I'm sure it's not wrong.

Still I wonder whether I'm strong enough
To stand a love being co tough
That lifts me up and holds me down
That makes me blue and play the clown.

FOREVER YOU 

by Jutta Gebauer – 11/1987

 felt so bad and everything was going wrong
All my life was emptiness, loving just had gone.
Right when I thought I had to lose, I had no aim,
You came into my life like in fairytale.

You took my hand and you were near
Suddenly everything is clear
You're here with me
You're my destiny
All I ever need is you.

… Forever you.

Now that I'm close to you and you will stay with me
Give me hope and tenderness, though my ‘heart can see.
You're shining through my life, you always are the light.
I know it will turn out now, loving you is right.

You take my hand and you are near
Suddenly everything is clear
You're here with me
You're my destiny
All I ever need is you.

…Forever you.

When I was young I had a dream of me and you
Never did believe in it till this dream came true.
You are my sun and all my life belongs to you.
All I need is holding you (there's) nothing else to do.

ME, THE FOOL 

by Jutta Gebauer – 10/1986 (12/1987)

You see me, the fool,
Never able to leave you.
But you are that cool'
Never able to leave her (him).

First I was afraid just to meet you alone
So possibly anyhow I might have gone.

But when I saw you together
I felt like in stormy weather
Felt hot and felt cold
Felt nervous and old.

So what can I do to make you remembering
That love is a thing meaning more than pretending.

Yes, when I saw you together
I felt like in stormy weather
Felt hot and felt cold
Felt nervous and old.

You see me, the-fool,
Never able to leave you.
But you are that cool
Never able to leave her;(him).

START AGAIN  

by Jutta Gebauer –12/1987

If I had a chance to start again
I'd never try to change the man
I love, but to change myself,
Try to rearrange
My life.

If I had a chance to start again
I'd like to have a child with that man
I'll try to make all new
And all I need is you-
Only you.

If I had a chance to start again:
I will not leave him again
Never will look for another man
All I will do
Is care for you
I'm still your wife you're still my man.

If I have a chance to start again
Don't leave me alone
Please, come back home
Come back and be my man
Once again.

... Let's start again

If I had a chance to start again
I'm sure he'll be happy, the man
(that) I love, that is you
Believe me, it's true
What I say.

If I have a chance to start again
Don't leave me alone
Please, come back home
Come back and be my man
Once again.

... Let's start again

WHAT'S YOUR NAME 

by Jutta Gebauer – 01/1988

First time we met
You asked me to stay
Promised me love
For ever and a day. "

Last, night we shared
I must have been blind
Thought it was me ''
That was in your mind.

Honey, tell me, what's your name
Since -we've met you're not the same.
Something changed, I don't know what
Tell me, please, what have I got?

Now that I see
Your eyes say good-bye
Give me a reason,
But tel1 me no lie.

Is there a chance
That you'll turn around
Make me still see t
The girl I once found?

WANTED TO SING 

by Jutta Gebauer – 08/1983
music by Rolf Simons

Wanted to sing you my lovesong
Before the night was gone
Then I saw that look in your eyes
Although it was no surprise
What I faced
In your eyes
Made me sad.

Wanted to take you in. my arm
To take away all that harm.
But there was something between me and you
That made me think I shouldn't do
What I liked
So I tried
To forget.

Tried to make you feel
That my feeling's real
Wanted to make you understand
The things from which I can't defend
Did I succeed
Will you lead
Me home.

Come back and stay
Then you may
Understand.
Take my band
Let me show
What I know
About (something called) love

LITTLE BIRD

by Jutta Gebauer – 01/1988

Little bird, you are afraid
You may feel that life can't wait.
You are young and you are free
There's so much you have to see.

Little bird,
You've got to fly
Little bird,
You'll rise up to the sky.
Little bird,
You've got your wings to fly
Little bird,
Your wings will take you high.

When I was young I felt like you
So many things I had to do.
Now you, my girl, will have to go
To meet the world that you don't know.
One day when you will reach my age
You'll know, you're always in a cage,

Little bird, don't lose your time
You must leave, then you'll feel fine.
There's a lot you have' to learn
And some time you will return.

Little bird,
You've got to fly
Little bird,
You'll rise up to the sky
Little bird,
You've got your wings to fly
Little bird,
Your wings will take you high.

Little bird, you are afraid
You may feel, that life can't wait.
You are young and you feel free
There's so much you want to see.

SPIDER'S BRIDE 

by Jutta Gebauer – 01/1988

Right before the midnight hour
You step in, dressed like in fire,
Watch the men just from your tower.
To make men burn, that's your desire.

You walk down, you're fixing me.
I can't move, can't run away
Your black net is holding me
Your fire's melting me today (away).

Your eyes are embracing me
While your finger's touching me [while your fingers touch my knee]
It is like in fantasy
The way you are bewitching me.

You're almost like a spider's bride.
Your kiss is deadly as a knife.
You find your victim for the night.
No way to run, to stay alive.

You have the power and the might
To paralyze and make mend blind.

In the middle of the night
You are sure I will not fight.
And you know I cannot wait.
I yearn to hold your body tight.

You're almost like a spider's bride.
Your kiss is deadly as a knife.
You find your victim for the night.
No way to run, to stay alive.

In the middle of the night
You are sure I will not fight.
And you know I cannot wait.
I yearn to hold your body tight.

BACK TO TOWN 

by Jutta Gebauer – 06/1983

All my dreams
Fade away
So it seems
Since this day
But I beg
They'll come back.

So, how much
Will I pay
Just to make
My dreams stay?
I can't leave
Despite of that grief!

If I had a home
I'd like to go home.
Where can I go
With no one to know?
I want to die
Right this day!

IF

by Jutta Gebauer – 06/1983

If I had a chance
Just to have a glance
Into the world of truth
To get out of my blues.

If I'd find a way
Not having to stay
Right in the world of sorrow
I could survive tomorrow.

If I had a chance
Just to start a romance
With the one I need -
But I will not succeed.

When will I be freed
When will I succeed
To find reality

To be me
Come to see
It's me!

CYCLES OF LIFE 

by Jutta Gebauer – 12/1987

If you think everything is wrong
Do hot give up, life's going on.
Wings of life keep moving on
Even hard times make you strong.
Do not worry, do not fight,
Rainy mornings may 'come bright.

Life is like a metronome
Always ticking, going on
Like the waves roll up and down.
Life will never keep you down.

Remember the nature and its cycles
And you will see of what nature life is.

After hard winters there's always a spring
And all the losers - one day they'll win.
Every darkness is followed by light
As always daylight will come after night.

Life is like a metronome
Always ticking, going on
Like the waves roll up and down.
Life will never keep you. down.

Do not lean up against the fall
You will get up, you will grow tall.
Think of good times you have had,
Bad times never were that bad
After you did pass them through.
Sure you know my words are true.

UNABLE 

by Jutta Gebauer – 08/1987

I'm so far away from weeping
But I'm afraid of sleeping
Having a dream
Of what might have been
So many years ago
And the feelings I know.

I feel torn between
The past and the now
Don't know what is now.
Wherever I've been
I was forced to go
Not able to dream
Not able to go.

The past is gone
And future's not here.
Right now I'm all alone
Nobody close to me, nobody near.

TRAVEL

by Jutta Gebauer – 01/1988

I travelled for ages to find the ground
To live with my dreams and no problems around.
Every place I stayed was not really mine
So tried to find it all the time.

A train took me further from station to station
Never reaching the point, never reached (my) destination.
One day I jumped out of the train of illusion;
Found out it was only a train of confusion.

Heading to future while bound to the past
Nothing will happen and nothing will last.
Life is in presence!
Take it right now!

Realized that my baggage full of troubles and pain
Was making all efforts to settle in vain.
Left behind all my memories and forgot all my dreams
Try living my life today as it is.

Heading to future while bound to the past
Nothing will happen and nothing will last.
Life is in presence!
Take it right now!

REALITY

by Jutta Gebauer – 06/1984

Realize my dreams
Make life as- it seems
To be on the screens
I see every night.
Show me the light.

You've got the might
To change all of me
The way you want me to be.
When we're bound I'll be free
For all new things
That a good love brings.

I'll see the bird that sings,
I '11 love the rain
As much as the sunshine. '
As long as you're mine
I'll be able to see the world
In your hair, that is curled.

Through your eyes in which burned
Love and hate I'll see
A new kind of reality -
Almost a new identity.

I FEEL

by Jutta Gebauer – 07/1983

I feel bad
I feel fine
I pretend to see a line
But still I want him to be mine.

I feel great
I feel sad
That's what I said
'Cause you're driving me mad.

I. fee love
I feel blue
Want my life to be brand new
Want to live just with – you.

WHY

by Jutta Gebauer – 07/1983

Tell me why
Can't I fly
To the time I knew
When my love grew.

Don't know why
I can't stay
Away from the place
Where we started the race.

Don't know why
I can't say
What my feelings are
- Why is he so far.

I know why
I want to cry:
I cannot show
What I know
That deep inside of me
There is only he
'Cause I don't want to hurt
Anyone else - it is absurd.

Don't ask why
I wanted to lie
Tried to pretend
I wanted an end
By running away from the chance
To renew that romance
Although I'm longing for love
- For more than I'll ever have.

Tell me why
I can't say
That I wanna renew
The love I knew.

I WANT… 

by Jutta Gebauer – 01/1984

I want to cry
Don't want to 1ie
Can't catch my dream
Can't see the beam
To guide me.

Have to pretend
Even towards my friend
That I'd be glad
When I feel sad
- Just to hide me.

Tears to be cried
Have already dried
Before I find the way
- The way to say
What 1 feel,

Feelings to be hidden
Since they are forbidden
Drive me mad
Make me sad
And lose my aim.

YOU

by Jutta Gebauer – 05/1984

Will you ever realize
That all you do is fantasize
A dream of your own
Not leading you home?

Try to come free
To make yourself see
What life is made for
That life can be more
Than hiding and thinking
About what it is bringing.

Come take my hand
Let's try to understand
What life is worth.

WITH YOUR PARTNER BY YOUR SIDE 

by Jutta Gebauer (Miroiu-Dunker) – 03/2013
for engagement pf Tiziana & Sean

Both your souls will be united
in a way that you decided

Combined power of both of you
makes your biggest dreams come true

Happy times will be a lot
for the love that you have got

Precious moments with your darling
give you so much tender caring

Gloomy clouds will fly away
giving way to a sunny day

Joyful hours in the sun,
party-time with lots of fun

And in colder wintertime,
have a glass of hot red wine …

LOVE & HOPE  

by Jutta Gebauer (Miroiu-Dunker) – 12/2018

We have good times,
We have bad times
And we all have seen the rain.
But thee fire
And desire
In us always shall remain.

Hope is fire,
Love's desire.
We shall never give up hope.
Love is stronger,
Hope lasts longer,
Than the things we have to cope
On our journey
Each and every day.
Hope and love will be our fire
To drive you up,
Not to give up
And reach you dreams sky-high and higher.

Hope forever;
Keep the fire,
Keep it burning and you'll know,
It will always
And on all ways
Be the light for you to go.

Don't forget this loving fire.
Share it with your dearest friend,
So the power of this fire
Grows and it will never end.

MISSED TURN

by Jutta Gebauer (Miroiu-Dunker) – 12/2018


Out of a sudden, your wrinkled and old,
Out of a sudden, life's feeling so cold.
Looking around you, you see all the youth,
And you just watch them and feel without use.

This is the moment, you will have to face
All life around you has got it's own pace
And you have missed the right junction to drive 



person holding woman's hand beside sea while facing sunlight

GEDANKEN

by Jutta Gebauer –1985


Ich suche Deine Gedanken
Und schaue in Dein Gesicht.
Ich höre Deine Worte,
Doch ich verstehe sie nicht,
Weil diese Worte etwas anderes sagen
Als Deine Gedanken Zu mir tragen

GEDANKEN IM WIND

by Jutta Gebauer –1985

Ich wollte eine Geschichte schreiben
Doch es sind nur Gedanken, die übrigbleiben,
Die nicht zu fassen sind,
Weil sie herumschweben wie der Wind.

MANCHMAL

by Jutta Gebauer – 06/1984

Manchmal kommen Gedanken auf
Ich kann mich nicht dagegen wehren.
Sie bauen eine Mauer auf -
Um zu sichern oder abzuwehren
Was dahinter ist oder von außen kommt?

Manchmal erscheinen Bilder
Sie sind so herrlich bunt.
Sie werden immer wilder,
Sie dreh‘n sich rund und rund
Wie ein wirbelndes Karussell.

Manchmal möchte ich die Mauern
Einreißen und das Karussell
Stoppen - um dann in Schauern
Voll Liebe mit dem Bilderkarussell
Des Lebens zu fahren.

DURCHBLICK ? 

by Jutta Gebauer – 11/1987


Vieles zu sehen
Und vieles verstehen
Das ist mein Ziel
Verlang7 ich zu viel?

Immer nur lachen
Nur alberne Sachen
Das ist zwar gut
Doch längst nicht genug!

Alles probieren
Und nicht nur studieren
So möchte ich leben
- Das Leben erleben.

Das Leben zu sehen
Und es zu verstehen
Das wünsche ich mir
Von Herzen mit Dir.

Alles erkennen
Beim Namen es nennen
Wenn es auch brennt
Nie wieder gehemmt.

Alles probieren
Und nicht nur studieren
So möchte ich leben -
- Das Leben erleben.

GESUCHT - GEFUNDEN  

by Jutta Gebauer – 09/1984


Ich habe nichts gesucht
Und Dich gefunden.
Ich habe oft geflucht,
Mich hin und her gewunden.

Ich suchte eine Liebelei,
Einfach so, nur Spielerei.
Ich wollte keine Liebe, nein,
Ich wollte einfach mal frei sein.

Doch was war geschehen?
Ich kann's kaum verstehen.

Ich dachte an vieles
Nur nicht an Liebe,
War sicher, dass es nur ein Spiel ist
Und dass danach nichts übrig bliebe.

Ich habe versucht, dich zu verlassen,
Hab‘ sogar versucht, dich zu hassen.
Ich habe versucht, das Ende zu sehen,
Doch ich muss gestehen,
Ich habe mich dafür verflucht;
Denn wenn ich dir jetzt in die Augen schau‘
Weiß ich ganz genau:
Ich habe immer nur dich gesucht.

Ich suchte eine Liebelei,
Einfach so, nur Spielerei.
Ich wollte keine Liebe, nein,
Ich wollte einfach mal frei sein.

Doch was war geschehen?
Ich kann's kaum verstehen.
Du darfst nie mehr gehen!

DU

by Jutta Gebauer – 08/1984


Du spielst mit dir selbst und mit andern verstecken.
Hast du Angst, man könnte dein wahres Ich entdecken?
Bist du wirklich so gehemmt,
Zu fürchten, man könnte mehr sehen als nur dein Hemd?

Geh' doch einmal aus dir 'raus!
Komm' doch aus deinem Schneckenhaus.
Es drückt dich nieder und hält dich am Fleck.-
Es behindert dich nur, so wirf es doch weg!

Vertrau' dich einem Menschen an,
Der dich liebt und dich verstehen kann.
Such dir einen Spiegel
Und find' dich darin wieder.

Lerne endlich dich zu akzeptieren,
Anstatt so viel zu philosophieren.
Auch wenn es nicht leicht ist, sich selbst zu entdecken -
Versuche nicht länger, dich ‘selbst zu verstecken.

AM ENDE DER STRASSE 

by Jutta Gebauer – 06/1984


Am Ende der Straße
Dort warte ich auf Dich
Der Weg wird sehr steinig
Ich weiß, nicht nur für mich

Am Ende der Straße
- Dort ist ein Licht
Ich weiß es ist dort
Vielleicht siehst Du es (noch) nicht

Ich sehe das Lachen
Die Liebe und das Glück
Ich schreite nach vorne'
und schaue nicht zurück

Ich werde ihn gehen
Den Weg zu diesem Licht
Und hoffe, Du folgst mir -
Oder traust Du mir nicht?

Am Anfang der Straße
Da stehst und zauderst Du
Nun komm' doch und folg' mir
Trau' Dir doch etwas zu!

Ich höre leise Schritte
Voll Angst, doch ohne Ruh'
Ich lausche Deinen Tritten
Doch geh' ich immerzu

Hab' ich den Weg gefunden
Uber Felsen, Schlucht und Stein ,
Bau' ich für Dich die Brücke
Direkt ins Glück hinein

Am Ende der Straße
Dort warte ich auf Dich
Der Weg ist sehr steinig
Ich weiß, auch für Dich

FREMDER

by Jutta Gebauer – 06/1984


Ein Fremder im eigenen Haus -
Du weißt nicht mehr ein noch aus.

Du kommst heim.
Es ist nichts mehr Dein.
Du siehst das Haus
- Es ist aus.

Du gehst hinein,
Siehst den Wein
Auf dem Tisch.
Die Spuren sind frisch.

Du nimmst die Tür,
Alles wehrt sich in Dir.
Du willst geh'n
Doch Du bleibst steh'n.

Es hält Dich die Pflicht.
Die Liebe - sie hält Dich hier nicht.

Jutta Miroiu-Dunker